Today I played hide and seek with myself in the mirror
And discovered how lovely my eyes look,
The way they opened
Each time my concealing hand let then shine
A halo-eing loneliness is zooming in on me.
I lie in bed watching my areola shrink into folds
And my breast fizz with goosebumps
From the cold chill that grips me
As I brush my own fingers lightly against my skin.
All over my body, scratches and scars
I tear my flesh helplessly with my finger nails
For an itch is hard to ignore
Much like this loneliness.
I am grieving but tears won’t roll
I want to remember the intimacy
But my urge is gone
I miss him but I don’t want to meet him
I want to admit it is over
But I pretend we are still together,
Playing hide and seek with each other.